Thought I was unbreakable. But this is killing me.
I am constantly restless. I cannot stop moving. I must constantly move some part of my body. If it isn't my feet, it's my fingers, or my head, or I constantly sniff like I'm addicted to cocaine. This is weird, because not so long ago I had this feeling of impending doom if I did … Continue reading Restless
No it doesn't. There is no rhyme or reason for anything. Let me quote Tool on this: Credulous at best your desire to believe in Angels in the hearts of men Pull your head out of your hippie haze and give a listen Shouldn't have to say it all again The universe is hostile, so impersonal Devour … Continue reading Shit happens for a reason
But I don't know with whom. There exists a deep need within to be with someone. But this is not a good starting point to a relationship, to be together just because the other one needs to be. Plus, being together doesn't cure schizophrenia or depression. It just adds problems. I need to learn to … Continue reading I would like to be in a relationship
At least that's what a mental health worker told me. So it's schizophrenia? Most likely, yes. Because that's what an experienced doctor, one specialized in her line of work, thought. She isn't just a psychiatrist, she is specialized in neuropsychiatry, so this is her line of business. But the thing seems to be that I … Continue reading You can’t have psychotic depression for years on end
In addition to having this blog, I also make music. You can find it here. All of these songs are "artificial", or that I've made them with my computer, with a program called Guitar Pro. Guitar Pro 6 to be precise. Yeah, check it.